I would like to exclusively breastfeed my baby for at least one year. Let me say that again, I would like to, that’s my plan. But it’s been proven to me over and over again that often things don’t go according to my plans.
In order to make this successful, it’s going to take a lot of determination and perseverance. My plan is to nurse before and after work, and then to bottle feed with expressed milk during the day. Can you see the problem? Expressed milk. Expressed milk! Aargh, I just managed to establish normal feeding, now I need to feed AND express. How did this time come so quickly?
Expressing is already proving to be quite difficult. I was lucky enough to be able to get myself an electric breast pump. I’m using the Medala swing, one of the most trusted and reputable brands. So far, it’s been going okay. Yes, only okay. I started two weeks ago (after her fourth trimester), expressing whenever Princess Porschie takes a nap, and expressing after she goes down for a her night sleep. I then began expressing before she has her first feed for the day. But all that hard work and I do not even have one litre of storage yet.
I will then need to express while I am at work. Which I am sure is going to be a struggle on its own. Again, so many unanswered questions. Where will I express? How often should I express? How is the stress of work going to impact on my ability to express at work? There are so many unknowns for a first time mom!
After all my research and speaking to other expressing mums, I know it will only get better with time. It’s exactly like nursing, it takes time for your body to adjust and establish the art of nursing. I therefore need to give my body time to establish the art of expressing. But I cannot help but feel anxious because there is only 10 days left before I have to begin working again. Can you feel my nerves??!
It feels so much like nursing all over again. I just need to tell myself to breathe, relax, drink lots of water and most importantly have faith. I was able to do it before, so I am able to do it again. I can do this, I can, I can.